Post Spring Break

It is absolutely beautiful today. The window in my room is open and I'm wearing a tank top and shorts around my building. I don't think the library is open yet so I'm attempting to get some studying done at my desk, which is obviously going so very well seeing as I'm on the computer. It's so hard to focus when this weather makes me want to run around outside like a five year old.

Spring break was short but oh so sweet. I didn't get nearly as much studying done as I'd hoped. Which scares me. Especially after my visit to Allen College, the nursing school I'm planning (hoping) to attend. It's so competitive. Sometimes I worry that I'm not cut out for it. I need to push myself harder than I already am but I have so many distractions. Every time I think about my grades and my application for Allen, my chest tightens and I start to panic. Just need to keep pushing. My goal for today is to get everything I wanted to get done for the day done by 8 pm so that I can watch the season finale of The Walking Dead. That's all I want. Just need to take things one day at a time so as not to completely overwhelm myself.

I didn't see all of my friends that I'd hoped to see over break. It makes me sad knowing that I've drifted so far apart from people I'd used to consider some of my best friends. But I have a new life here in Cedar Falls now, and new friends here. And I can accept that. And I can be okay with that.

Michael met almost every member of my family. One thing I really love about him is how comfortable he seems when he's outside of his comfort zone. I envy that so much. I feel so awkward and uncomfortable around people I don't know and situations I'm unfamiliar with. He was awesome meeting my family, they all loved him. He stayed the night at my house Friday and we spent the night in my bedroom together, listening to City And Colour and talking until 3 am. We fell asleep together for a while and then he went to sleep in the bed my mom had made up for him. In the morning he kissed me awake and we had breakfast together before the St. Patrick's Day parade downtown. It was a wonderful day.

Now I've been back at school since last night. I got the teensiest bit sad leaving CR last night, but that feeling was instantly washed away once I arrived back in my room. I love it here. I don't know how many times I've said that but man, I really do.

Aside from the mounds of homework I have yet to finish, everything is pretty much perfect. I secretly wish summer would never come.