Consuming as much coffee as possible right now to will myself to stay up and study. I feel as though I haven't slept in days. I'm just trying to constantly remind myself that this will all be worth it in the long run, and next week I'll be able to do whatever the fuck I want and not have to study again for a whole month.

And also apparently tonight is the night that my brain finally decided to register that Seth is leaving in a couple days. Worst timing ever, I just really need to focus on my finals right now. Why is it that playing sad songs makes you feel better when you're sad? It does, it helps. It seems to bring my emotions right to the surface, but at the same time calms me. I've been listening to Bon Iver's cover of I Can't Make You Love Me for days on end. It just seems to fit.

But I'm really sad about this situation. I definitely didn't think it would be this hard. I hope I don't cry when I say goodbye to him.....
I'll probably cry, though.